Pacing:
What It Is and How to Do It
Two Pacing Success Stories
By Bruce Campbell
To
give you an idea of what can be accomplished through pacing, here are
two success stories from CFS patients, JoWynn Johns and Dean Anderson.
JoWynn was severely restricted by her illness, but improved over a
period of years by living within her energy envelope. Dean functioned at
a higher level initially and eventually recovered. (Both wrote articles
describing their experience that we have posted in the Success
Stories archive.)
JoWynn
Johns: Learning to Control Symptoms
After
a career as a corporate executive and management consultant, JoWynn
Johns developed symptoms of
CFS in 1991. In the first two years, a period that she calls “keeping
on with my life,” she continued to live a busy life “despite feeling
awful.”
From
1993 to 1997, a time she calls “all-out effort to get well,” she
experienced a collapse and responded by trying many different
approaches, including exercise, yoga, meditation, homeopathy, special
diets, medications and supplements. None of the strategies helped. She
experienced repeated cycles of push and crash, and gradually reduced her
activity level.
Two
changes occurred during this period that pointed her in a more
productive direction. First, she began to listen to her body, asking
what it needed. Second, she changed her goal. Letting go of the idea of
recovery, she decided to focus on feeling better.
During
a period she called “learning from my own body and experience,”
JoWynn aimed to determine what she had to do to feel better. She began
by asking herself what it would mean to have a “good day.” She
decided that a good day meant a day having no minor symptoms and a
minimal level of major symptoms. A good day also included being able to
take a walk and do artwork. Because she found a strong connection
between troubled sleep and bad days, she also developed a definition of
a good night: sleeping at least seven hours and waking refreshed.
She
then asked, “What do I have to do to have good days and good
nights?” After studying her journal and notes, she concluded that she
could have good days if she met six conditions: spending 12 hours a day
in bed, getting seven hours of sleep, staying at home, restricting her
daily activity, working on the computer no more than an hour at a time
and having no visitors or long phone conversations. This was her energy
envelope, her set of limits. Staying within them offered her a way to
feel “as good as possible.” (Her limits were quite restrictive,
corresponding to a score below 20 on our Rating
Scale. Your limits will
depend on your unique situation.)
In
the next period, which she called “developing a feedback system,”
JoWynn focused on developing a record keeping system.
It included a monthly calendar, on which she noted her activities and
symptoms for each day, with grades for each day and night as good or
bad. She used color coding so she could see at a glance how she was
doing.
Over
time, she was able to see patterns. Predictably, poor sleep was
associated with bad days. But she also found that mental exertion and
emotional stresses provoked symptoms just as much as physical
activities. Explaining the motivation for her elaborate scheme, she
said:
I
needed to make this information visible to prove to myself the effects
of mental and emotional exertion, as well as physical activity. I also
wanted concrete evidence of the effects of staying inside my envelope.
Because limiting my life in this way is so very hard for me to do, I had
to show myself that it was worth it.
She
called the last phase “accepting my envelope.” Living within her
limits, JoWynn was able to greatly reduce her fatigue and other
symptoms. Over time, she significantly increased the percentage of good
days in each month from about 35% in 1996 to 80% and more in 1999. Her
story through early 1999 is told in Living
Within My Envelope: A How-To Story.
At
the end of 2002, she was able to report, “I now have nearly 100%
symptom-free good days. What a difference that makes! For me, having CFS
is like having diabetes: it’s a chronic condition that can be managed
and that requires lifestyle adaptations.”
In
2006, she reported further improvements in her condition. She had not
experienced IBS for two years and her sleep was noticeably better.
Comparing living within her envelope to other treatments she has tried
over the years, she reported “the only things that make me feel better
and keep me relatively stabilized and able to achieve my priorities are
scheduled resting and pacing.”
Dean
Anderson: A Recovery Story
Dean
Anderson’s approach was
similar to JoWynn’s, even though his starting and ending points were
different. He functioned initially at a level corresponding to about 60
on our Rating Scale and
worked ¾ time. After an eight year struggle, he returned to full-time
work, travel and an active social life, and described himself as
“substantially recovered.” Most of his recovery occurred after his
fifth year of illness.
Initially,
he believed that he could recover through determination and hard work.
Using this approach, he had some improvement, but he found himself
devastated by relapses, which he viewed as signs of a failure of will
power. His experience led him to the belief that the key to his recovery
was to adopt a different attitude, which he called a particular kind of
acceptance. He described it not as resignation, but rather “an
acceptance of the reality of the illness and of the need to lead a
different kind of life, perhaps for the rest of my life.” He
explained:
The
“effort” required to recover from CFIDS is an exercise in discipline
and hopefulness, not determination and striving. The discipline required
is…the discipline to recognize and adhere to one’s known limitations
and to follow a strict regimen without periodically lapsing…. It
is the will to protect oneself, to not over-do and to find ways to be
productive and find fulfillment under unfamiliar and difficult
circumstances.
His
is not the attitude of conquering illness, but rather one of listening,
understanding and adapting to it. He emphasized living within limits in
a disciplined and consistent way, staying true to what his body
required, and looking for ways to find meaning in a different kind of
life.
He
wrote that he enjoyed a good relationship with his physician, but
experienced no benefit from visits with a chiropractor, a homeopathic
doctor and an acupuncturist. He also tried various alternative
treatments, but concluded that none of “the remedies, medicines or
food supplements I tried helped me one bit.”
He
came to believe that recovery would depend solely on his efforts and,
with that belief, formulated a “recovery strategy.” His approach
included keeping a daily health journal, eliminating negative influences
(both people and attitudes), and learning to be alone in silence
(including learning to live without television).
A
central element of his strategy was defining a safe level of work.
Through experimentation, he concluded that he could work six hours a day
without intensifying his symptoms or jeopardizing his recovery. Although
he continued to be quite symptomatic, he was successful in working at
that level while improving very gradually.
He
used the hours freed up by his part-time schedule for self-care. He
spent part of his lunch period resting. Also, he took an hour-long nap
and did 20 minutes of visualization after he got home each day. On
business trips, he took naps after arriving at his destination and
declined many dinner invitations. Summarizing his approach to activity,
he said, “I gradually learned to pace myself to stay within my
limits.”
He
also exercised on a regular basis, experimenting to find his limits in
that part of his life, just as he had with work. He kept records of
“exercise duration and how I felt before, during and after each
workout, and especially how I felt the next day.” He found his best
time for exercise (late afternoon or early evening, after a nap) and the
“right kind, intensity and duration of exercise for me.” More
importantly, he developed a new attitude toward exercise. A recovered
“exercise junkie,” he trained himself to enjoy exercise for its
immediate benefits, without having any goal of progressing.
He
also addressed on his attitudes and emotions. He reports that during the
first few years he was sick, he felt resentment and anger toward his
ex-wife and others in his life, and also guilt and regret over past
failures. His response was to work at changing his attitude so that he
was not controlled by negative thoughts and emotions.
As
he improved, he gradually expanded his work day and after eight years,
reported “I have returned to a full and fulfilling life.” He titled
his recovery story Acceptance, Discipline and
Hope, saying he
believes that what CFS patients need is the strength to accept their
condition even if others refuse to, the discipline to do consistently
the things that promote improvement, and an attitude of hope.
In Summary
Both
JoWynn and Dean used similar
strategies in responding to CFS. They began their quest for improvement
by accepting the reality of the illness and the need to lead a different
kind of life. They found their limits by listening to their bodies, by
experimenting with different activity levels, and by keeping detailed
records.
Both
had a flexible approach, in which they continually reflected on and
learned from their experience. Both found the key to improvement lay in
disciplining themselves to live consistently within the limits of their
illness. Their experiences suggest that patients may be able to exert
significant influence on their symptoms and quality of life by the
consistent use of pacing.
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